Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Dear Peter, Its been a crazy year. I belive tomorrow you and I may have known each other a year. I remeber it was Puppy night at the Eagle where we first meet face to face and got to hang out after a couple of months chatting over Facebook. I want to say that this has simply been one of the greatest expirence's and friendships I have ever had. I know it is painfully aparent that I am in Love with you, and many times you have made it clear that while you do care for me as a friend, you do not feel the same in return. I know it has made things painful and difficult for our friendship. However I wouldn't trade this year's worth of adventures for anything in the world. I look forward to another year of laughter, meditation, rambling conversations, and while not the same for both of us, Love.
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Smoking. So have done a damn good job with the cutting down on drinking thing. However my lungs need all the help they can get and my smoking isn't helping at all. The plan? Quit smoking! How am I going to do it? Well I'm going to avoid smoke breaks during games. I will take the time people go out smoking to jot down notes and run small scene for those at the gaming table who do not smoke. I will also make an effort not to smoke while I am drinking, it will be difficult but its the next step in cutting out my social smoking. How will I hold myself accountable if I break this? Well I am not sure. Bab habitis are hard to break and self punishing can be very damaging to one's self worth. I guess I will simply think of the cost of medical bill and how much money my mother paid for having me to see the doctor. Also I need strong lungs to be physically actyive, and if I cannot be physically active I won't be able to stay healthy. Health is the best track to becoming my best self, I just need to remind myself of that.
Saturday, January 4, 2014
So I want to change my eating habits, be healthier and more practical. I am looking tocook and prepare food more. Ever since my vaction to Puerto Rico I have once again fallen in love with home cooked meals. So I'm going to make an effort to make them happen for me. Overall it will be cheaper and if I can buy the right ingreditents, far healthier. There is an awesome Mediterraean grocery store down the street that I discovered. I am buying spices and grocieries from there, and also instead of eating at Jack in the Box when I need a quick lunch or dinner, I go there to purchase burke, meat pies, and kabob plates for the same prices. It nice eating delicious middle eastern food instead of cheap burgers. Its been working out so far, I just need to stick with it. With food that delicious, I have a strong motivation to do so! Guess all those "health first" foodies are right. SO long as what you are eating is appetizing, it doesn't have to be a hurtful struggle to change what you eat.
Friday, January 3, 2014
Thursday, January 2, 2014
Why am I journaling? Well I want to try and express what is going on in my life on a daily basis in a medium other than Facebook or Instagram. To get even more to the core of things my Doctor in Puerto Rico said I need to "live my song", hence continue being an Artist. This was further reiterated by my friend Nick Hirsh who stated I needed to make sure to have a creative outlet on a daily basis to maintian my sanity and spirit. So I am embarking on this 31 day journal challenge as a means of following my Doctor's and Friend's advice. No day like today right?